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I got done reading a “Salmon” blog  and was hungrier than….than…erm a starved  bear on steroids.   I should (do) know this feeling well.  It happens to me all the time. Happened to me yesterday too in fact.  Jim was gone for the week, and I was looking forward to having MY favorites (or so I thought) during the time he was away, as we like “different” things.   So yesterday at work it was a slow day and I got a full hour for lunch.  I went to Dave and Busters after I picked up my lab coats.  Now that was a true “splurge” for me, because every OTHER day at work I have pretty much TAKEN my lunch to work.  If I ate at Dave and Busters everyday, there would be no point in working, because my lunches would damn near cost more than what I make in a day.  Besides, after looking at the menu, I ended up ordering a hamburger, and substituted twice baked potato soup for the fries (add $2.50).  I just have never liked fries all that much.  Meal and tip included was 14.00—too much for cheapie me-- for a work lunch anyway. Plus I could have had a burger at home with some fruit and it would have cost me $4.00.

So I get off from my work and errands yesterday, and am thinking of what I will make for supper.  I go to the grocery store and wander up and down the aisles.  Lots of things sound good….even MORE things LOOK good.   I remember I bought a boxed taco kit the other day to have while Jim was gone (he likes them but can’t eat them due to stomach problems), and although I know there is some hamburger in the freezer, I don’t have “time” to thaw it.  (I hate thawing meat in the microwave).  So, I pick up a package of hamburger.  Next, I see the tortilla chips at the end of the aisle, and I think Chips with Salsa Con Queso sound good, maybe with a lil taco meat mixed in.  So I get the package of chips, but I also need the Queso, so get a jar of that.  I remember we are out of eggs, so 2 cartons of eggs go in the cart.  I LOVE eggs and could eat eggs for supper ANY day! Jim does NOT like eggs for supper, because he has them at breakfast, (and I don’t eat breakfast—I refuse to get up precious 20 minutes early to cook/eat breakfast—although lately I have had him make extra eggs at breakfast so I can have them at lunch). 

I look lovingly at the brownie and cake mixes—this Molten Lava Cake is looking yummy.  However, I am not about to spend $2.00 for a single serving of cake.  Then I see a box of Lemon Bars Supreme mix.  It’s only $2.50 but will make an 8x8 pan over a single serving one anyway!  In the cart the lemon bar mix goes.  I look at the back of the Lemon Bar mix and see a recipe for “Amazing Lemon Cheesecake Bars”.  I just need to add some vanilla, sugar, and cream cheese!  Off I go to the cream cheese aisle. The 8 ounces of cream cheese goes in the cart.  I am really feeling like crap (have a bad spring cold) and figure I have a start at least to make something for supper.  I pay the bill and drive home.  I take the groceries in to put them away.  I open the fridge and scour it for the sour cream, a MUST HAVE for either tacos OR Chips with Queso.  No darn sour cream.  I sure as hell am not in any condition (or mood) to go BACK to the store (about 4 blocks away) for sour cream.  I ended up having left over pizza from Saturday night after all that. I now don’t feel like Lemon Bars either.  Screw it.  I drink a half bottle of Robitussin, take Allegra, rub myself down with Vicks, and am in bed by 11:00 pm.

 THEN

Today I get up (at 10:30 am, after a fitful night of having to get up 100 times to blow my nose, get nasal spray, and take my inhaler)…and after calling in sick to work today.  When I get up, my “plans” for the day only involve  trying to get 12 pounds of snot out of my head, while attempting to breathe. I DO NOT understand how a head/nose can hold THAT MUCH PENT UP SNOT!!! I talk to myself to see if my voice has returned….nope. 

Jim pm’s me and we chat for a moment.  I wish him a Happy day, as he heads to his sisters back in Tennessee.  I go take a hot bath and hope the vapors clear my nose.

I get out of the tub and get some scrubby clothes on.

I go to the computer and notice the Salmon blog again, and it’s then that I remember I haven’t eaten yet, and it sounds yummy.  I reluctantly put on makeup and head to the store (I probably wouldn’t have, but I needed cigarettes anyway).  I get to the store and again grab a cart, perusing the aisle while keeping in mind I need sour cream, nasal spray, Robitussin, and Vivarin.  I go by the feminine products and remember that my “auntie” was coming for a visit soon.  I grab a box of tampons since I am there anyway. I get the aforementioned  items and then scan the aisles for more things I “need”.  Suddenly tacos or Nachos with Queso don’t sound as good as they did yesterday.  I do see some cheap pork sausage and all of the sudden I am having a craving for sausage and eggs on an English Muffin with Hollandaise sauce.  I grab English muffins and get a pack of hollandaise sauce.  I already have the eggs I bought yesterday (along with the hamburger, tortilla chips, queso, lemon bars, & cream cheese) .  I go by the oil and remember we are almost out of vegetable oil.  I put one in the cart and then think…HEY……I haven’t had Fried Bread Dough in ages (bread dough fried in oil and then dunked in sugar).  I grab *2* bottles of oil for this reason, then off to the frozen bread aisle I go.  One package of Frozen dinner roll dough  go in the cart.  At this point, I decide I am too indecisive, and go to check out.  I get the most important item (cigarettes) and then off I go home to put away the groceries for today.  I get home and suddenly I am not hungry.  I do make some sausage patties and fry them (I will take them to work with eggs for lunch tomorrow anyway). What I will have for supper tonight……God only knows.  Knowing me, I’ll order out Chinese.  Or have leftover pizza from Saturday.   Grocery total for 2 days, $87.43.